I'm kinda freaking out....No really freaking out

So, here we are. The night before Isaac Grant will make his entrance into the world. I've done this before. No need to be nervous/anxious/scared/ect, right? Well.... I've never been a mother of two before. It seems so much more adult and grown up than the mother of one. I worry about how Sophia will react. She is so sweet now and talks about her baby brother and how she is excited. She gives my belly hugs and kisses and talks to him every day. But what will it be like when he is here? What happens when she wants to play ponies and I have to feed/change/rock her brother? As much as I love the 2 year age, let's be honest. It can sometimes be more than a challenge. Am I going to be able to be patient with her while I am running on fumes from night feedings? She is such a sensitive girl. I don't want to hurt her feelings or make her feel left out. And then there is something else that wasn't quite there the first time. Certainly I thought about it. But not like this time. As I prepared for the birth of Sophia, once or twice the thought went through my head, "What if something happens to me during the c-section?". I am sure every mother has thought something similar. But as much as I loved Sophia then and as horrible as it would have been....the amount of love I had for her on July 10, 2006 was nothing like the love I had for her on July 11, 2006. And neither one of those amounts come close to comparing to the amount of love I have for her on Feb. 22, 2009. That little girl is my world. And the same is true for Isaac. Sure I love him now, but nothing like how I will love him after I hold him. I don't want to miss out on even a second of them growing up. Now I know that I am in God's hands and am sure that I will be just fine, but that little voice of fear is rather annoying and has gotten quite loud tonight. The only thing to do now is to trust and pray. Will blog soon with photos.....

Presents for Isaac

Today we went to Earth and Fire Pottery so that Sophia could make something for Isaac. She had a great time this Christmas painting pottery, so I thought that she would enjoy it again. She picked out what she wanted to paint him and we even let her pick out the paint colors. It is so hard to let her do "whatever" without fixing it or giving more suggestions, but we tried. I know that they will turn out perfectly.

Isaac's room has circus animals in it so Sophia picked out a giraffe, hippo, and cow to paint for his room. I know that you are thinking that the cow is not so much circus-y but I guarantee you that if you saw a white cow speckled with red and blue, it would be in a circus.

I can't wait to see them when they are all done. I know Isaac will love them.

"The Before"

Sophia hard at work on the giraffe.

Daddy helping out with the cow.

Momma helping with the hippo

The finished product

Funny Stuff

This is just a reminder for me of how funny 2 year olds can be and how their minds work. Sophia has an ear infection and of course the cold to go along with it. Yesterday when she got up from her nap she was coughing. Sophia: "Momma, how are we going to get this cough out of my mouth?" Me: "Well, Sophia that is why we are taking the pink medicine. To get rid of your earache and cough." Sophia: "Momma I have been taking pink medicine. It not working. Now what?" I love this age.

Brief, Overdue Update

It's been a long time. This last trimester has flown past and I have just not had the time or energy to sit down and blog. So, I will give a whirlwind pictorial update and then try and stay more current. Great Wolf Lodge: We had a great time. Sophia loved the water and Cory loved all the rides. Sophia even went down a couple of the kiddie slides but wasn't too terribly sure about them. There was a show in the evening that she loved. It even snowed indoors at the end of the show. She thought that was the coolest thing.

Enjoying the "snow"

Next came a visit to Florida. Cory and I couldn't get off work, so Mimi and Pardie took Sophia to Florida to visit with Great-Grandparents, Aunt and Uncles, and cousins. She had a great time. Mimi and Pardie took her to Disney one day. Mimi said that when she got on the Pooh ride she told them that she had been on that ride before with Momma and Daddy. Crazy, huh? She was only about 20 months old when we did that. I can't believe she remembered. They also took her to the beach and she had a great time. That girl is such a beach girl. She is really going to be upset when she learns she is a Florida born girl and we took her away from the beach. She still asks at least once a week for us to go to the beach. I wish it was that easy. For Christmas Great Uncle Ken (GUK) and Great Aunt Cheryl (GAC) got her a beautiful Cinderella dress. She loved it and wore it all day long at Disney World. It was so hard to be away from her for those couple of days, but I know that she had a great time and everyone enjoyed having her around.

She looks almost like a doll in this picture.

Next came Christmas. She was really into presents this year and became quite a pro at opening them. She got a little too excited and wanted to open everyone else's presents too. We will work on that for next year. Her big present from Santa was a huge dollhouse. We heard that it was quite something for Santa to put together. Maybe next year Santa will get something a little easier to build.

I love this picture. She was in awe when she saw the dollhouse and realized it was for her.

Loving the keyboard.

Then came the big snow of '09. We lost a tree and our shared fence due to the ice but our poor neighbors didn't fare so well. They just got their roof finished in December from the windstorm. This time a huge oak tree from their yard fell into their house and through their roof. It went through into 3 bedrooms upstairs and into their kitchen. Everyone was okay but what rotten luck. Sophia enjoyed the snow a lot. Our neighbor from across the street came over and Sophia had her first snow fight. She loved it. She even got her Daddy a couple of times.

That brings us up to current day. Baby Isaac will be here on Monday and I can't even believe it. I am excited and nervous. Knowing in some ways what to expect (interrupted sleep, teething, cuddly baby times) but not knowing how it will be the second time around and how Sophia will adjust make me a little more apprehensive than I was the first time around. I can't wait to meet him though.